| # | Author | Message |
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| melekalikimaka
Wed 12/15/2004 3:32p | (I didn't know your husband was from Washington.)
I do believe that some people are blessed and can foresee things. I try not to spend a lot of time wishing I could see the future, etc. Part of me wishes I could just hear that my son will be okay in the end. It would make all of the suffering seem somewhat bearable. But, I am not sure I could live w/the knowledge that he will not be okay. It's hard enough to survive everyday as it is.
Sometimes living w/the idea that everything has a purpose doesn't help much. Especially if you wonder if that purpose is simply a punishment for some past wrong.
Everyday w/my son is so hard. There really aren't any big dreams for him left. We have hopes. We pray that he will one day choose to live his life instead of ruining it. We pray that he won't end up on the streets, or jail or worse. It's the glimmer of hope that keeps us going.
Did I mention I am having a really, really bad day? ;-) |
532
| Lisann22
Wed 12/15/2004 3:39p | ^^^ aye yi yi - call in all the reinforcements for a complete body massage and full platter of goodies for mele! |
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| MissCandice
Wed 12/15/2004 4:15p | I will sing a soothing carol for Mele. |
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| FaMulan
Wed 12/15/2004 8:02p | [flops into the nearest comfy chair]
Pass some wine, my car almost overheated on me tonight and it's now in the shop.
Merry Christmas to me, here's a whopping bill for auto repairs. |
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| melekalikimaka
Wed 12/15/2004 10:19p | I just spent the past 4 hours in the ER because my son repeatedly threatened to kill himself. He even ran to the kitchen to get a knife.
The neighbors LOVED having 3 police cars (plus the 2 from earlier in the day) and an ambulance blocking the street.
Of course, I had an emotional breakdown at the hospital and now have I a migraine (but am not vomiting...yet).
Anyone happen to know how much an ambulance ride costs? They'll be sending the bill and I didn't have the guts to ask.
If I didn't have another child to consider, I would just take down all of my Xmas decor and go into hibernation.
Sorry if this sounds dramatic...it's just been that kind of craptastical day. I am seriously considering eating myself into a chocolate coma :-( |
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| MissCandice
Wed 12/15/2004 10:22p | That is totally my new word for the day "craptastical".
Man, Mele...you poor woman! Have all the chocolate you want! I donate my share (and weirdly enough was just about to eat some) to you. All I have are those minature Heath Bars, left over from Halloween but please take them!
<----Sings another soothing carol for Mele. |
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| melekalikimaka
Wed 12/15/2004 10:27p | I'm sorry to hear about your car trouble, FaMulan. We had our car die almost exactly a year ago. It's such an awful feeling (especially when you've got Xmas presents to buy, etc.)
The worst feeling is not knowing exactly what is wrong or how much it might cost to fix :-(
((((FaMulan)))) Care for some chocolate?
Thanks Candice! I will so totally take the Heath bars! :-)
Maybe I'll post my chocolate caramel Heath cake recipe sometime. |
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| LVBelle
Thu 12/16/2004 5:16a | <--- curls up in the corner and quietly whispers to herself "2 more days, 2 more days, you can do it, 2 more days!" |
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| FaMulan
Thu 12/16/2004 6:13a | mmmm, Thanks mele, I don't turn down chocolate.
((((((((All))))))))))
Where's Brendan Fraser when you need him?
Or perhaps a stimulating conversation with William Peterson. I simply adore his character on CSI because he's complex and very intelligent. |
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| TiggerPooh1973
Thu 12/16/2004 7:44a | So sorry mele! I have some mini chocolate mint Kit Kats my MP sent me, want some?
And I would love that cake recipe!! Chocolate and Heath bars....YUM!!! |
